CXV : I Want to Complain!!

Much to complain about right now, but I'll continue to work hard even though I'm complaining about it.

When people sign up to be committed as an officer of an organization, why do they not regularly check their emails? Or why do they not respond in a timely manner? Or why do they not respond at all?

When people want to push their ideas forward, why do others not help out and make it easier to make it happen? Why do they just agree that it's a great idea, but it's up to you to see it through? You have to set it up, you have to keep it going, you have to make sure that it will happen while they just wait for you to tell them what is needed to be done.

When you trust someone else to finish their part on time, why is it more surprising if they do than if they don't? Why don't people understand the urgency of timeliness? Some things need to be done well ahead of time so we can avoid a rush or the possibility of running out of time.

When someone says they'll get something done by a certain day, do you really expect it to be done by then? No. I don't hold people to their words unless they can prove it to me the first time. Why is it that very few people actually keep to their word? If something comes up and you have to push it back a bit, I'm fine with just getting a message saying so. Why do so few people keep others updated about their part of the work?

Why do I have to be the one asking to meet up to get stuff done all the time? Is it not possible to have things done when we don't meet up? I directly ask if I can count on people to do their job, if they're responsible, and if their answer is "yes" then I expect that. So prove it to me before I start getting annoyingly pushy. I'll be superbly delighted when you're done with your part, but next time, I'll expect that you won't be contributing any output unless told to again.

Why do you ask if I can drive you to your car now and then go start a long conversation with another person after I've agreed? Why do you say we'll be leaving soon and then keep being superficially polite to others, causing us to stay even longer?

Why do you keep asking me "what are you doing?" in a given day? Why do you always ask me "where are you?" when you call me? Those two specific questions haunt me and I just want to reply with "why do you care?" but I can't say that to my mom when she's the one asking. Still, those questions get on my nerves.

Why do I always have nothing happening in my life that makes me want to tell others who are willing to update me on their lives?

Why am I so awkward with people that I can only attract creepy guys? Why do other women seem so much more interested in chatting about the topic of men and relationships than I do?

Why do I always feel compelled to say nice things about people? Why do I always feel guilty when I say bad things about someone before I've heard anyone else's opinions?

Looking at other people hanging out makes me feel lonely. But hanging out with people all the time gets tiring. I kind of enjoy walking into a restaurant or cafe and say "one person."