Don't know what happened, but today during my pchem discussion, I suddenly just felt like I did way back in high school during my freshman to junior year days. Back then, I had a phase when I would compose poetry for fun and just wonder about what happens in the world by jotting down random verses that I thought connected together well. Anyway, I did listen to what was going on in discussion too! Here it goes...
Having said and done
is having done what is said,
which is to be good at.
Having not said and done
is having done what is not said,
which can be proud of or punished.
So, would you rather remain neutral and be unknown
or risk judgment and obtain recognition?
The more and more I get into the world, the more I ask myself, "am I able to deal with this on my own? Or should I ask someone more knowledgeable to tell me how it's done?" I feel like I'm incapable of dealing with something that pops up and I am unprepared for it. If I saw someone else deal with it, then I would be able to, too. But that's just like copying. It's not like I came up with it on my own. Just more practice? Is that enough to be able to think in new situations?
Friday, February 26, 2010
Saturday, February 20, 2010
L : Last Semester of Undergrad - Week 6
YES! Interview is over and done with! I can't say I feel spectacular about it, but I don't think I bombed it. I really need more practice with interviews though. I want to know what interviewers think when I answer their questions. Anyway, apart from thinking about the interview these past two weeks, there were some nice bits of relaxation.
The French restaurant I went to last week for my friend's 21 was called Cafe Beaujolais. Small, delicious dishes that took probably 40 minutes to come and vanished within 10 minutes.
Appetizer:
My meal (some sort of salmon):
More food: I saw these at one of the university's cafes. Doesn't look as delicious is Sus' macaroons. tehehh
And the 3-day, 3-holiday weekend I went home, I tried my purple eyeliners. Love love. But I'm still experimenting with them. I went with the light colored one today for the interview. My mom said the dark colored one fits better for night events and the light one for the day. Purple is seriously one awesome color.
Also while at home, I ate at Mad Fish for the first time. Not bad. But really not that special. I really loved their rice though. So cute and well-displayed. Very Japanese-like. Food was assembled very nicely.
More about this week. Interview questions make me feel the need to plan out my future now and play it so it happens as planned. But I'll still leave everything open. Who knows, maybe I'll end up with my PharmD and work in entertainment!
Last night, when I came off from work, there was a woman sitting next to Tommy Trojan. She attracted me with her FREE "I love your SMILE" sticker. She told me how she was raising money for children who need education, food, or whatnot in the world, and she just started today. $3 for one child, $5 can pay for 2. Who knows if she was telling the truth, but I took her word for it. I wanted to donate $5, but I only had a $20. So she said she could give me change. I ended up donating $6. Not bad though. I truthfully told her "and I love your smile~" when I left and she had given me another sticker. I probably won't ever know if my $6 will really feed someone out there, but ever since going to Spain, I've had this desire to make enough money to be the one to act rather than the one who donates. Or maybe, my work can be to provide health services for those children/people. Who knows. That's an open option too. After I walked away from that lady, I thought, does it matter the people we choose to approach or the people we smile to and greet? Does it matter whether they sit on the side of the sidewalk or walk on the streets? There may be a possibility that the person is dangerous, but don't most people welcome the warmth of acknowledgement? On Tuesday, when walking to my Japanese Anime class, I passed by these two African American old daddy-like men sitting on the street. I've passed by one of them before. I saw no harm in saying Good morning to them. And they said that to me too. Cheery men, they were. Who knows if they were homeless. But they were cheery.
Does it matter that I don't mind extending out to those others may find suspicious or annoying? Or that I don't feel the iffyness some people get from others? I let however I feel when I am with them be what I feel. Is there a reason to analyze it any further? I've learned that there are overly simplistic people who don't want to think too much about others' actions (and can be difficult to handle), but over-complicating things can just be as difficult to handle. Maybe I'm complicating things in my own way.
I'll trust first and be patient. I think it's hard to get me to lose either/both with someone. But it's possible.
The French restaurant I went to last week for my friend's 21 was called Cafe Beaujolais. Small, delicious dishes that took probably 40 minutes to come and vanished within 10 minutes.
Appetizer:
My meal (some sort of salmon):
More food: I saw these at one of the university's cafes. Doesn't look as delicious is Sus' macaroons. tehehh
And the 3-day, 3-holiday weekend I went home, I tried my purple eyeliners. Love love. But I'm still experimenting with them. I went with the light colored one today for the interview. My mom said the dark colored one fits better for night events and the light one for the day. Purple is seriously one awesome color.
Also while at home, I ate at Mad Fish for the first time. Not bad. But really not that special. I really loved their rice though. So cute and well-displayed. Very Japanese-like. Food was assembled very nicely.
More about this week. Interview questions make me feel the need to plan out my future now and play it so it happens as planned. But I'll still leave everything open. Who knows, maybe I'll end up with my PharmD and work in entertainment!
Last night, when I came off from work, there was a woman sitting next to Tommy Trojan. She attracted me with her FREE "I love your SMILE" sticker. She told me how she was raising money for children who need education, food, or whatnot in the world, and she just started today. $3 for one child, $5 can pay for 2. Who knows if she was telling the truth, but I took her word for it. I wanted to donate $5, but I only had a $20. So she said she could give me change. I ended up donating $6. Not bad though. I truthfully told her "and I love your smile~" when I left and she had given me another sticker. I probably won't ever know if my $6 will really feed someone out there, but ever since going to Spain, I've had this desire to make enough money to be the one to act rather than the one who donates. Or maybe, my work can be to provide health services for those children/people. Who knows. That's an open option too. After I walked away from that lady, I thought, does it matter the people we choose to approach or the people we smile to and greet? Does it matter whether they sit on the side of the sidewalk or walk on the streets? There may be a possibility that the person is dangerous, but don't most people welcome the warmth of acknowledgement? On Tuesday, when walking to my Japanese Anime class, I passed by these two African American old daddy-like men sitting on the street. I've passed by one of them before. I saw no harm in saying Good morning to them. And they said that to me too. Cheery men, they were. Who knows if they were homeless. But they were cheery.
Does it matter that I don't mind extending out to those others may find suspicious or annoying? Or that I don't feel the iffyness some people get from others? I let however I feel when I am with them be what I feel. Is there a reason to analyze it any further? I've learned that there are overly simplistic people who don't want to think too much about others' actions (and can be difficult to handle), but over-complicating things can just be as difficult to handle. Maybe I'm complicating things in my own way.
I'll trust first and be patient. I think it's hard to get me to lose either/both with someone. But it's possible.
Friday, February 19, 2010
XLIX : Last Semester of Undergrad - Week 5
A bit late, almost time to jot about week 6, but oh well. I'm feeling incredibly nervous right now, so I want to get some stuff out of my head. Interview tomorrow. It has come!!! yipes.
This was a delicious week of curry. I made beef curry this time with my roomie, and we lasted for nearly a week on it. It was quite a curry-licious week. And every time I ate my rice with curry, I would fall deeply into a food coma. Eating curry makes one verrry sleepy afterward.
Other food news. Chai latte is quite delicious warm. I've decided to try all the cafes on campus this semester. So far I have hit the Architecture one, Popovich (Business school one), Tutor Hall (Engineering school's), TroGro, and the Law School one. But I confess, Popovich and the Law school ones were this week (week 6). ;P Now, why doesn't my college (LAS) have a cafe like the others do?
I put this on my phone for this week: "I enjoy spontaneous hang outs, even if it's just for a few minutes." But sadly, I don't remember what I was referring to! Who did I meet up with? ... I think it was a freshman year roomie... yeah. Most likely. It's been so busy suddenly (february is apparently busy month for me). Piling up so much and forgetting so much. shucks.
But I've gotten a few minutes of outside reading. Working on finishing "The Tipping Point." Loving it so far. "Six degrees of separation doesn't mean that everyone is linked to everyone else in just six steps. It means that a very small number of people are linked to everyone else in a few steps, and the rest of us are linked to the world through those special few." (Page 37) Makes sense. There are only a few people who really love to talk to random people and make conversations. I met a mom who did that on the Primetime shuttle back to school this past weekend. Quite good at gathering information, and quite good at getting people to know random things about you at the same time.
Anyway, a random note to myself. I think the best when I'm in the bathroom. It's good alone time. And good thoughts flow through my brain. But when I come out of the bathroom, they all flow out, and I have to think hard to retrieve them. Which I never end up being able to do, sadly.
Last random note. A baddy team player had his 21st bday last weekend, and some of us held a little party for him. We went to a French restaurant and paid for his dinner. He later told me that was his first time he experienced having his dinner paid for on his birthday. He usually paid for everyone on his birthday. Interesting, but totally understandable, since that's what my mom (and the moms of my family friends group) does. I thought, how easy it was to talk about deeper subjects with these people and get an idea of their personalities rather than thinking so much about myself. Yet that in itself is also kind of thinking about myself. Still such a kid for unconsciously paying more attention to myself than others.
I'm surprised there was so much last week! And I didn't even talk about my three-day three-holiday weekend. I'll clump all my pictures for later. My brain actually feels lighter now! And it's raining outside again. The sun didn't stay long enough!
This was a delicious week of curry. I made beef curry this time with my roomie, and we lasted for nearly a week on it. It was quite a curry-licious week. And every time I ate my rice with curry, I would fall deeply into a food coma. Eating curry makes one verrry sleepy afterward.
Other food news. Chai latte is quite delicious warm. I've decided to try all the cafes on campus this semester. So far I have hit the Architecture one, Popovich (Business school one), Tutor Hall (Engineering school's), TroGro, and the Law School one. But I confess, Popovich and the Law school ones were this week (week 6). ;P Now, why doesn't my college (LAS) have a cafe like the others do?
I put this on my phone for this week: "I enjoy spontaneous hang outs, even if it's just for a few minutes." But sadly, I don't remember what I was referring to! Who did I meet up with? ... I think it was a freshman year roomie... yeah. Most likely. It's been so busy suddenly (february is apparently busy month for me). Piling up so much and forgetting so much. shucks.
But I've gotten a few minutes of outside reading. Working on finishing "The Tipping Point." Loving it so far. "Six degrees of separation doesn't mean that everyone is linked to everyone else in just six steps. It means that a very small number of people are linked to everyone else in a few steps, and the rest of us are linked to the world through those special few." (Page 37) Makes sense. There are only a few people who really love to talk to random people and make conversations. I met a mom who did that on the Primetime shuttle back to school this past weekend. Quite good at gathering information, and quite good at getting people to know random things about you at the same time.
Anyway, a random note to myself. I think the best when I'm in the bathroom. It's good alone time. And good thoughts flow through my brain. But when I come out of the bathroom, they all flow out, and I have to think hard to retrieve them. Which I never end up being able to do, sadly.
Last random note. A baddy team player had his 21st bday last weekend, and some of us held a little party for him. We went to a French restaurant and paid for his dinner. He later told me that was his first time he experienced having his dinner paid for on his birthday. He usually paid for everyone on his birthday. Interesting, but totally understandable, since that's what my mom (and the moms of my family friends group) does. I thought, how easy it was to talk about deeper subjects with these people and get an idea of their personalities rather than thinking so much about myself. Yet that in itself is also kind of thinking about myself. Still such a kid for unconsciously paying more attention to myself than others.
I'm surprised there was so much last week! And I didn't even talk about my three-day three-holiday weekend. I'll clump all my pictures for later. My brain actually feels lighter now! And it's raining outside again. The sun didn't stay long enough!
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