I am unhappily wet. Again.
Yoga makes me sore afterward.
I am unable to decide between conflicted classes.
The future intimidates me still.
I am still sick of eating at the Lot.
There were lightning and thunder this week, which made me smile because I saw and heard them while being inside eating dinner. I wanted to take a picture of this corner of the street that I walked passed because the water was running so wildly it was as if it created a small creek running to the draining holes. The height was near the sidewalk level, too. I didn't get it though because I was in a hurry to get to lab on time, but I thought, "ah, it will keep raining this hard this week so I'll have many chances to get a pic of it.." but it never came back. *sigh*
I had my first yoga lesson yesterday and it was awesome. So many stretches and poses that made me work muscles that were very weak, since I am lop-sided from playing badminton and not working out. I felt sore after that 2 hour class, and I still feel it today. I like.
I have a conflict in my schedule because my pchem discussion and physio lecture are at the exact same time on Fridays. Last week, I went to physio lecture, and yesterday, I went to pchem discussion. I might stick with discussion (except for the upcoming April 9 exam) because physio lecture are recorded and because there's so much math I have to remember how to do for pchem. What? Partial integration? What?
What am I aiming for? I can easily say "to become a pharmacist," but I don't feel that kind of strong-willed desire to pursue it. As a matter of fact, I still feel shaky about it. Am I prepared to go through the intense classes, the time devotion to various things, the driving around, the multiple choices I probably will have to make between overlapping events? I really dislike choosing one option over another when there is no possibility that they can both happen. I lose so many opportunities like that, and who knows if the one I end up choosing would give me the opportunities I need. Where, or more like, HOW to search?
And well, the Lot is nice to sit in, especially when the power goes out, but I'm starting to not enjoy the feel of it. It feels too much like a messy underground shelter of fast foodness. Good thing it's a temporary structure, but too bad I may not have the pleasure to enjoy the new dining complex, which I still don't know the name to.
All in all, I'm back to looking forward to weekends only and not wanting Mondays to come. I enjoyed every day last semester and felt I had so much free time, which is probably due to the morning classes and no evening classes. I wish I ended classes in the early afternoon again. And had roomie gatherings at night.
Ooh yoga! I was thinking that I should take yoga classes this semester since I'm going to be crazy stressed (the stress is already starting, just posted on my tumblr about stressful stuff), but then I realized that I don't have time to go to yoga classes. Lame, haha.
ReplyDeleteClass conflicts suck. I think I might have one right now. It seems that my bio 1b and genetics class have a midterm on the same day at the same time, so I might have to drop one of them. Dunno, though. The genetics syllabus and calendar don't match for the midterm date and I haven't gotten a response back yet. I really really hope I don't need to drop, cuz at this point it'll be really difficult to find a replacement class.
I was actually outside during a thunder/lightning storm. Tiffy came to visit and dragged me out (in the rain) to go visit Sophie. I felt unsafe holding an umbrella considering that it's partly made of metal.
"...and felt I had so much free time" Totally agree. Now that I look back, last semester was like free time heaven, haha. My weekend is now basically reduced to Sunday since I still have MCAT prep on Sat (especially if I end up getting a volunteer position on Saturday). And Sunday will be used as a catch-up day.
Haha, now I see one reason for people wanting to marry doctors (other than their having stable careers). Even as premeds, they had to have had a strong sense of self-motivation, dedication, and knowing exactly what they wanted in the future.
Btw, what are you doing in the picture? Dino? Hehe.
lol i like the picture
ReplyDeletehaha~ yeahHH!! we were preparing to roar like dinos but my roomie took a pic without the timer so only I was roaring. haha
ReplyDeleteI only have yoga once a week, maybe you can learn yoga from online sources to start off your sundays? :P ahh, it's like, once again junior year is ending stressfully. at least, I thought mission junior year was stressful too.
But even if you know for certain you'll be going for MD, you still have to narrow it down to what kind of doctor will you become. Same with PharmD. A specific kind of pharmacist is what I can't decide on when people ask me what I want to do as a pharmacist.
btw, steph, what do you want to do? :P
Yeah, junior year-beginning of senior year is always stressful cuz of applications and tests like SAT or MCAT. Plus classes get harder.
ReplyDeleteI think at this point worrying about what path to take later on is a bit early. Every time someone asks me what kind of doctor I want to be, I tell them that I'll decide after I get into med school. I'm one of those "don't count your chickens before they hatch" kind of people. I do plan for the future, but it's more like lots of plans (Plan A, Plan B, Plan C...), all equally possible rather than one specific plan, definitely an INTJ's mode of thought.
That's what I love about the future: the possibilities out there are endless. The past, on the other hand already happened and can't be changed. So other than learning from past mistakes, I tend not to dwell on it.
For some reason I think of undergrad majors as an analogy to narrowing down the type of doctor I want to be. During Berkeley's freshman orientation, pretty much every freshman I met wanted to be MCB/premed (or actually, in general, a majority of college freshman seem to want to be MCB/premed). Now junior year, most of those people are majoring in something else because 1) they realized they weren't that interested in bio/found something they liked better, or 2) they realized that they were overconfident/ended up getting really poor grades in premed classes and were forced to find a different major.
Considering that I'm not in med school yet, I feel that I'm not informed enough about all the different specializations to know what I'll want. And who knows how I'll change in a few years. Maybe I'll be so tired that I decide I don't want to specialize (more years of school). Or maybe I'll be inspired to choose a specific path because of a class I take later on.